there is no fixed state

There is no fixed state;
no love no hate;
no destiny no fate;
stop being so au fait.

Sylvia said it best;
you're not the living;
you're the rest.

Time clicks by and you don't even see it;
I'm no fancy poet;
I'm the first to admit.

But look at the starts, the sea and the sun;
Their everlasting metaphors have all the fun;
we sit, we sleep, we shit, we weep;
the sun warms the water as they laugh at our heap.

'They don't know what they're missing' said the star from way up high;
you can write, you can sing, you can criticize, you can sigh;
but to answer this statement we can only say 'aye'.

We adore the birds, so free in the sky;
But I hate heights so I don't care if they die;
The elephants roam free in the African wild;
While we encage and suppress our stupid child;

Anthromorphology is not for me;
no metaphor or poem will describe what I can't see;
so take with this poem no enlightened soul;
and continue your life as a darkened blind mole;

Speeches don't speak a thousands stories;
just full stops, half-ryhms and intentional pauses;

let us die with shame as we fail on our two feet;
this is what they want;
you never left the teet.

day whatever

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Valentines was OK, got the transformer out and about in Leeds dropping it down the gaps of the floor where those big metal birds are in the city center.
University is alright, averaging 2:1's, got 59% on an essay the class never got any aid with 'how good is liberalism?' that's like asking a teenager how good McDonalds is, where exactly are we meant to start? Got an essay in for Monday on climate change, maybe I should start soon. Had a joint birthday party last night, was ace went to bed at 8am.

My friend said before the party; 'you ask a white child what colour their skin is they look at it and say 'pinky' and look at other kids skin colour and say 'brown', 'dark', 'pinky' not you ask the same person later in life and they say 'white'. Just an observation someone made, not a critique of colour of people's skin.




Money is tight, I have no laptop, almost no iPod - but life is good :)

Disabled people - in some way you are under-developed maybe mentally or physically, are you disabled if you are over-developed? Still disabled and put down in 'society'. Bit of a potentious statement I know, but this is my blog fuckers. Don't really know what else to say to be honest - take care?

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laptopless

OK, so me being me I wanted to see what would happen if I turned the voltage up on my laptop. The battery fried and now I am laptopless until I can afford a new one...which is unpredictable.
That was a week ago Today, and I've had a pretty good time since.

Went touring the other day and found places like this:


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I seemed to have quadrupled my free time, and also found some sanity...let's see how long that lasts.

I'm constantly charging my phone and ipod touch however and fuck knows what I'm going to do for essays and I've developed an interest into the real gay rights movement, the real progression of civil rights for people who look like everyone else. Though I am highly critical of other people's motives, such as just looking for a pull, and the need to link profit with the basic need of equality. Suppose it all comes down to positive and negative equality. Also I went to a gay club the other day and 90% of the boys were fake tanned, fashioned, camp, wine drinking typical gays - I went there a few weeks earlier and everyone was down to Earth, whatever wearing, whatever drinking, snorting, real people. Oh well ey the mono-dimension of being a gay man spreads.

I've been hearing a lot about this upcoming election. I reckon the Tory Party will get in, and if the Labour Party win it would be a hung election, unless the Liberals create a coalition with the Labour Party we will probably have to have another election not long after. It would be easier to talk about who will win the election and not why does the system always create bad Governments and how can we make a more fair type of system other than representative democracy. I'm not really calling for a revolution because you can change the system through reform, much like the Liberals notion of scrapping the House of Lords. The HoL is basically fat bureaucrats that have an influence on our daily lives even if they have never seen poverty, death or slums of Britain. But they also keep some sort of fairness in decision making so they aren't completely pointless.

Got a house for next year too living with 3 of my Manchester mates in a wee part of Manchester called Victoria Park - the kitchen is linked to the living room! And I picked the bedroom on the ground floor so I could get cheaper rent to fund the cat I'll be getting...or house rabbit...

I have 51p in my bank account, and I'm going to Leeds on Valentine's Day - this will be fun haha

McDonalds

We live like McDonalds someone said;

"We live like McDonalds, the system isn't good for us, it promotes monopolization and gives us indigestion. It gives us some good nutrients but is essentially bad for us. But day in day out people don't care, it's there - it's not immediately harmful and sometimes you just need a double cheese burger."

These posts have been a load of shit for a while haha, I just have bigger issues that I can't be arsed to write about but need to work though and blah blah blah


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question

People think morality is an innate knowledge that is instigated in all human beings and those that deviate from it are not genetically complete. Doing the utilitarian thing says that sometimes bad choices have good outcomes for the greater good. I think family, friends, emotions and Walter Disney teaches us right and wrong and we question our decisions sometimes because it's only natural, maybe the word of mouth of religion but I come from a secular lifestyle so I don't know, sort of like when you write and stare at a word for so long it begins to decode in your mind to a point where it doesn't make sense. I think we build our own type of 'morals' through how we've taken information in and defined it e.g. if someone hurts someone in a particular way we learn that that is not right and as we develop learn a more complex version of this that is combined with some soical etiquette and drive to act in a manor accepted by people around you, therefore so if I boy is raised a criminal by the people around him - it can be justified?

I realized I like writing because nothing ever makes sense when I talk haha

P.S. and the song (at the time of posting) isn't meant to brainwash you, I was just listening to it at the time haha - Munich

Expectation

I love this song at the moment.

Someone told me that Facebook, MySpace, PS3, XBox, fictional TV series etc were just ways to allude the mass into a false state of consciousness where they exist as existing entities and die unmoved living merely as a barcode and not actually achieving anything academically, emotionally or willingly- sometimes people don't care though, a good game is fun to play whether it be real or not.

This post isn't worth posting but here it is.

Since

Since my last post I've been home, had Christmas, NYE and Birthday, came back, and blah.

I watched Donny Darko for the first time just there - my take on it was that it was either a dream, or he completed time travel.

Made me think of the issue of power and who has it. Coming from a slightly different angle of theory I agree with Foucault that power IS everywhere, cocacola has power over rolla colla and teachers have power over pupils. He said that truths are power, but I disagree. I believe truths are subjective. I don't mean truths as in left is left, I mean ethics and morality. A persons mind is mainly molded by what they experience and are taught. If a person is only taught to murder then that is there ultimate truth and their maximum ethic yet the morality is out of their hands and into a more collective view that murder is wrong. So really what I have to conclude is that morality is not power or a truth unless challenged by something with less significance. Living in the world that we do today - morality is challenged every day by every one. If morality is collective then ethically we could all be living in Persian fur so long as we could have all afford it and saw nothing wrong with it back in the day. Because if no-one criticized it then there is no issue. Hello democracy.

In saying that, we got our morals from Disney and our parents whereas other countries don't raise children with parents or Disney so there might always be a challenge to ways of living so long as there are alternatives. Though not everyone in this country was born with Disney or a family. Some were but rejected both. This intercomplexety is confusing for me at 7am so to simplify; if we had the same morals built into us at birth why are there random crimes of hate against strangers for no known purpose? It's not answerable. Everything has purpose so we can only assume that everyone is different. And this massive push for individualism in the 21st Century is exactly why we are seeing a diffusion in politics, and everything around us. It's OK to be yourself.

Back to this net of power that has everything in it. Baudrillard said power only exists so long as there is something disrupting something else. The Sun has power over the Earth. But also linguistics. The way you say things can show power - even if they aren't truths. But due to each persons idiosyncrasy most things that aren't absolutes are interpreted differently as we didn't all watch the Lion King at the exact same time, you're individual life has shaped everything around you. Even if you are multi-dimensional, you don't perceive the same knowledge as the next person. (Absolutes are fundamentals such as 1+1=2)

Essentially what I've written here might make no sense to you, but it does to me, and if it made sense then maybe we have a different interpretation on it.

Either way we were both brought up into a Western, Capatalist, 'democratic', one party ruled nation amongst other things so we would have similar interpretations like separate pieces of blue tack walking along pavements picking up different bits - maybe.